Thirteen Reasons Why 10th Anniversary Edition

I really liked it and it was interesting to follow. It almost made me cry and it was just really good! Sometimes I got a little confused with like the characters (who is speaking) but not that much so yeah it is enjoyable.

Ich gehöre wahrscheinlich zu den wenigsten Leuten, die dieses Buch absolut nicht empfehlen können & den „Hype“ niemals verstehen werden. Persönlich finde ich, dass es sehr schlecht & lahm geschrieben wurde. Zudem finde ich es nicht besonders passend die Geschichte des Erzählers (warum auch er quasi ein Grund für ihren Selbstmord war) mitten im Buch zu erzählen. Das nimmt einem die Lust weiterzulesen. Das Buch vermittelte mir den Eindruck, dass ein Selbstmord in den Himmel gelobt werden sollte - zudem vermittelt es den Eindruck, dass andere Menschen Schuld für so Entscheidung tragen. Dabei ist & bleibt die Entscheidung sich selbst das Leben zu nehmen zu der Person selber. Meiner Meinung nach gibt Hannah in nahezu all ihren Kassetten die Schuld diesen Menschen. Sie sind schuld an ihrem Selbstmord. Das sagt sie auch so. Ja, vielleicht ist es manchmal so, dass Menschen dazu führen das andere in so eine Entscheidung getrieben werden. Aber wenn einer sich dazu entscheidet sich das Leben zu nehmen, dann ist es seine Entscheidung & dann kann man nicht die Schuld den anderen in die Schuhe stecken. Dieses Buch könnte von vielen jungen Leuten, die leider mit sich selbst kämpfen müssen falsch interpretiert werden. Dass es eben „ok“ sei, sich das Leben zu nehmen, anstatt sich Hilfe zu holen. Dass es „ok“ sein, die Schuld für sein handeln auf andere zu schieben.

Ich mochte den Schreibstil sehr, mal wieder etwas Anderes, etwas Neues. Solche Geschichten berühren mich immer wieder aufs Neue und lassen einen immer wieder aufs Neue nachdenken.

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It was a while ago I read this so I don’t remember every single detail but this book crossed my mind and I thought that I wanted to write something about it I liked the thing with the tapes and the whole concept of it. I‘m also quite obsessed with the series. But the reason I like it so much isn‘t because of how it‘s written or how the characters were created. It‘s more some kind of emotional story that I‘m going to tell. I know that no one asked for it but I still do. Oh and I‘m sorry for my English. It‘s not my first language. And triggerwarning. I guess I actually didn‘t read the book. Shocking. Why would I write a review about a book I didn‘t even read?. Because I listened to the audiobook. Hahaha. Great joke. (I‘m being sarcastic). Actually. I was like 12 years old or something and my life hasn‘t been so easy recently. I suffered from feeling like a burden. Like I had to make that I don‘t exist anymore so others could be happy. Sometimes I also would feel the need to cut myself. Like I wanted to. Like I would loose control. But I never did. I was too affraied. And my panic attacks also were pretty bad at the time. No one understood me. They said. Just breathe. You‘re so dramatic. You only want attention. We don’t have time for this. It‘s only in your mind. I felt like I‘m insane. Like I couldn‘t trust my own body anymore. Like I was dying because I couldn‘t breathe. I always tried to explain that It‘s really happening. That I don‘t make it up. That I really can‘t breathe. Mental illness wasn‘t atopic at that time. I don’t blame them. They just didn‘t know. But I felt so guilty. So guilty for being who I am. For not being better. They told me that I was a burden. I would destroy the whole family they said. I believed them. Of course I did. What reason would I have to think other way? None. I don’t blame them for saying these things to me either. It was a difficult time back then. Poeple were sick, dying. Now I know that it wasn‘t my fault and that they were just in their own pain and mentally destroyed. Their pain just turned into anger and I had no reason for feeling any guilt at all. But I didn‘t know that back then. So I started to pretend. Pretend my panic attacks wouldn‘t exist. Pretend my thoughts wouldn‘t get darker every day. Pretend I‘m not broken. I had to take care of them. Make sure that they‘re okay. I had to Funktion. It was one of those nights where I couldn‘t breathe. I was leaning against the wall. My head between my legs. Trying to breathe, trying to focus. Trying to remind myself that it‘s all just in my head. But the voices wouldn‘t shut up. They whispered things in my ear I didn‘t want to hear. My hands were shaking. My body was exhausted from hyperventilating. I wanted to distract myself so I searched for audiobooks on YouTube. And I found 13 reasons why. I thought that it would be a thriller. Ideal to distract myself. I listened to it the whole night. Until I was done. After finishing it I couldn’t believe what I just heared. I starred at the ceiling. Lost track of time. Still couldn‘t sleep. Millions of thoughts running trough my mind. I never felt so understood. So seen. Maybe. I thought. Maybe I wasn‘t insane. Maybe there are others who feel the same way too. There must be. I realized I wasn‘t alone. And this helped me SO much. I discovered this book by chance and I‘m still thankful for it. I started to watch the show on Netflix too. Felt even more understood. Started to read other books about topics I‘m struggling. All of this helped me to see that suicide isn‘t and option. Let me hope that there might be a Clay in my life. I got friends in school ( still don’t know how but SO thankful) and I started to find Joy in things again. I started to search for the light and found it everywhere . Just like stars. You just have to look closely enough. Like seeing the excitement in a flower on the path your walking on, a person smiling at you. A stranger giving you a compliment. The sunrise. It’s the little things. There will always be dark times. You life won’t ever only be light but if you think of it. The dark sometimes can be a comforting too. And too much light takes the ability to see away. We need the dark just as much as we need the light but that doesen‘t mean that we should let the dark take completely over. We just don’t have to give up. Keep searching. I got so much better. It all started with this book. All thanks to this book that gave me so much hope I hope what I wrote even makes sense. And maybe even possibly could help someone. Suicide is not an option. You can do it. You can make it. You‘re strong. Be strong enough to accept help. It’s ok to ask for help. It‘s a good thing . Mental health matters. YOU ARE NOT ALONE I think that that’s all I wanted to say. If someone will ever read this (I quite doubt that but yk just in case) thank you for listening to me. For spending your time to read my story Enjoy life. Make the best out of it. You‘re loved. You‘re beautiful. You deserve to be happy. You deserve the world. And love yourself too I believe in you :)

Book was difficult to read, in TV Show its easier to hear her voice speak and watch the scenes that other people describe.

I can't review this. Suicide is a difficult topic and there won't be any consens reached. Overall this is a page-turner, I flew through this in one night. Watch the Netflix-adaption! It's good!

Aunque es un libro que le gustó a muchas personas en mi opinión no tendría porque. Es un libro que habla del suicidio, la violacion y el acoso escolar de una forma un poco turbia.

I really enjoyed the style of the book with the 13 audiotapes. Sadly, I keep reading that it glorifies suicide and I have to say I don't agree for various reasons: 1. The effect of the tapes on people (contains spoilers) The tapes show how angry Hannah is, she might have decided to be done with life but she clearly wasn't ready to leave. Her suicide was a punishment for everyone who hurt her, or at least that's what she wants it to be. Of all the people on the tape, I think Clay is the only one being punished, because he really wanted to get to know her, help her and be close to her. Some of the others, like Alex, Justin or Zach, who had just pulled pranks on her, they might be reminded that those pranks can hurt people, Courtney might start being nicer to others and Bryce, well, Hannah Baker was crazy and killed herself, so why should he take her seriously or even feel responsible. -> The desired result was not achieved, she only made the one person feel bad who had nothing to feel bad about. Conclusion: Don't commit suicide because you want someone to feel bad because they won't. 2. Hannah isn't the victim (contains spoilers) Yes, she experienced some stupid, annoying and hurtful things from her friends in high school, but haven't we all? I know in most situations this is a horrible thing to say but even in the situation with Bryce, she provoked the "rape" to happen. And I put it in quotation marks because I'm not sure one can call it rape, knowing her thoughts. Objectively, it definitely is rape, even though she didn't say no. Subjectively, she knew his reputation, she even considered that getting into the hot tub with him was not a good idea but she did it anyways. She could have gotten out with Courtney and she could have said no, and she knew that at any time. She was conscious and not intoxicated (although mentally probably not in her right mind). To me it seemed like she needed a justification, another reason to kill herself. Something to make people see her as the victim but in my eyes, she wasn't. The situation with Jessica just adds to it. She never spoke up, she never checked in with her former best friend or even offered her help. -> She presented herself as the victim but wasn't. Conclusion: If you kill yourself and present yourself as the victim, other people might not believe it or even get mad but you can't defend yourself anymore. 3. She could have changed more staying alive (no spoilers) Had Hannah decided to stay alive and get real help, actually asking for it, she would have had a bigger impact on the people she wanted to punish. She could have been a witness for Jessica, started an anti-bullying campaign, started a conversation on how to treat girls at the school. With the right support there would have been an option for lasting change, rather than making one person feel bad. No spoilers: As to seeing Hannah as a relatable character, I think she very much is one. As a (former) teenager who has suffered from depression I can tell you, the world can look very dark! And it is scientifically proven, that a teenager's brain isn't completely developed yet in order to put a perspective on those dark periods. The world looks lonely and you see no way out, just like Hannah. I myself wasn't diagnosed until years later and I wish that I'd had the medication as a teen that I have now because it makes the world look so much more mellow. Yes, it is still hard sometimes but I always know that there is help and that there will be a way out. But at Hannah's age, directly asking for help would not have been an option. Just like her I would drop hints, little cries for help, hoping someone would pick up on them but I wasn't seen. Luckily I decided to suffer through it instead of killing myself because I always saw it as an illogical option and Hannah didn't. In conclusion I think the book represents the mind of a teenage girl suffering from depression really well. And while it might present suicide as an option, the reactions and feelings that are presented by everyone else, don't make it a viable one. Although this might be the view of an adult who has reflected about her illness and suicide a lot. So, my recommendation would be not leaving teenagers alone with this book but discussing it and putting Hannah's faults and misguided conclusions high up on that list of topics.

It had suspense yes, but the thoughts were disjointed and not really the best kind of book. I don't like the way suicide is displayed as a casual decision in this case. Overall I finished the book wanting more. I think I'm even stretching it to a 3 star just out of hope here.