It was beautifully painful, devastating with a little spark of hope. I don't think I ever cried this much while reading a book. At moments I couldn't even breathe properly. I love Julian. He has such a kind heart and deserved nothing of what happened to him (except meeting Adam). I rarely care for characters as much as for him. It's sad the book ended so soon. I hope he can become happy. Truly. I also love Adam. He's a good friend/brother. His care for Julian warmed my heart and his parts made me survive this book. I would have turned into a river without him. I think the ending has it's flaws, as have Emerald and a few of the adults (especially the teachers) in this book. But at least concerning the characters: flaws are a human thing and honestly I simply cannot give this book anything but 5 stars.