Ok I don‘t get it. At first it was mysterious and whimsical and all - and then the secret was revealed and I was BORED. It was like reading a kid‘s journal? Readings about all those mundane tasks and phrases that Lily doesn‘t fully understand, is just so. boring. I get why she would fall in love with Sam - because he was the only one to ever notice her, to care for her. It felt like a kind of Stockholm situation though? She doesn‘t KNOW anything, anyONE else to even have the CHANCE to choose differently. Sam on the other hand? Why would he fall in love with basically a homeless, confused, at times ILLITERATE girl that - let‘s be honest - is fckn creepy at times. Probably because she‘s hot? I love a good slow burn, I really do, but this story just seemed pointless. No plot, no interesting characters, nothing I was craving out of this book (after the reveal, that is).

"I don't think I would mind being yours," she says softly. She doesn't know what it means, but she knows that he makes her feel warm and happy. Sam takes care of her, makes her smile. She is sure that being his cannot be a bad thing.
Jede Nacht sitzt Lily auf ihrer Bank im Park und schreibt Geschichten über das, was sie sieht. An ihren Tod – oder daran, wie sie wieder erwacht ist – erinnert sie sich nicht mehr. Die Welt um sie herum verändert sich stetig, doch sie selbst bleibt, wie sie ist: unberührt von der Zeit. Nacht für Nacht sitzt sie allein auf ihrer Bank … bis sich eines Tages jemand neben sie setzt. Vielleicht wird das ja meine neue Tradition: Jedes Jahr mit einem Buch von Rachelle Raeta beginnen. Das letzte Jahr hab ich mit ihrer Dilogie „These Immortal Truths“ (criminally underrated, by the way) gestartet und mich total in ihre Art, Geschichten zu erzählen, verliebt (große Empfehlung an dieser Stelle - erscheint im Sommer auch auf Deutsch) In Everlong hab ich mich sofort wieder in ihren ruhigen und gefühlvollen Schreibstil verliebt. Die Geschichte entwickelt sich langsam und unaufgeregt und stellt so die Charaktere - allen voran Lily und Sam - in den Mittelpunkt. Ihre Ängste, ihre Erinnerungen und Träume, ihre Trauer, aber auch ihre Liebe sind so wunderschön beschrieben. Mein Problem - und die Betonung liegt hier eindeutig auf mein - war, dass ich mir, aus welchem Grund auch immer, einen ganz anderen Verlauf der Geschichte in meinem Kopf ausgemalt hatte, weshalb mir der Einstieg etwas schwer viel. Ich habe noch ein, zwei kleine Kritikpunkte, diese würde ich an dieser Stelle aber für mich behalten, da ich glaube, dass die Geschichte dann am besten wirken kann, wenn man vollkommen unvoreingenommen und ohne Erwartungen reingeht. Nur eines möchte ich noch erwähnen und vielleicht könnt ihr so tun, als ob es eine Überraschung wäre: Ich habe am Ende natürlich wieder geheult, wer hätte das nur gedacht. Ich würde das Buch auf jeden Fall weiterempfehlen und hoffe, dass die Autorin bald (noch) bekannter wird. Kleiner Tipp: Die Geschichte findet ihr bei Kindle Unlimited! Und zum Schluss: Wie schön ist bitte das Cover? Ich brauche es auf jeden Fall als Trophäe für mein Bücherregal. 👀🦋
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I don’t even know how to explain this book except… it completely got under my skin I started reading it in the evening just to see how it was, and suddenly it was 1 a.m. and I couldn’t stop. I finished it in less than 24 hours. It’s quiet and slow and emotional in the most haunting, beautiful way. It’s not a typical vampire story at all. Lily isn’t some dramatic immortal - she’s tired. She’s fading. She writes stories on a park bench to remember who she is, because her memories are disappearing. And then Sam shows up. He’s just… calm. Kind. He listens. He sits with her like she’s still real. And that’s what broke me a little. The themes - memory, loneliness, immortality, love - were done so well. Like actually so real and raw without being too much. It felt very dark academia, but in a soft way. Not murder-at-boarding-school, more like “I write to feel something and I’m kind of unraveling but pretending I’m fine.” Think cold air, late nights, books no one reads anymore, and two people trying to stay human together. Somehow, nothing happens and everything happens. “She was always fading. And he stayed anyway.” I felt weirdly seen by this book. Like it understood things I didn’t know how to say. And by the end I was just sitting there, blinking at the page like: wow. okay. cool. I’m emotionally wrecked now If you like poetic writing, sad immortal girls, quiet boys who care, and the kind of story that lingers in your chest for a while… this is 100% worth reading 😭⭐️💕
Wow, there's something really special about this book. I love Lily and Sam so so much , the way the author wrote about them makes it obvious that she really loved these characters. The slow burn felt so good in this. This whole book WRECKED me, it was funny, romantic, sad and happy all at the same time. I love Maggie and Nina, the way they treated Lily like their daughter , even after they found out what she is. Same with Finn and Julia, the way they were scared at first ,but very quickly realised that she's not dangerous at all. Mei is underrated as well, I honestly really learned to like her. The ending was so beautiful and yet so heartbreaking-Lily chooses to write her and Sam's story instead of giving up.
To say that I absolutely loved this story would be a huge understatement. From the opening chapters that set up this beautiful story, to the love that blossomed, the battle that was fought, and the ending with all its emotional roller coaster, I couldn't be more pleased. This was my third book by Reata and I am totally in love with all of her works so far.




