I´m so done. From this day on, I will never ever ever ever again read a book written by a male author with a female main character, if it is not K. Liu, B. Sanderson or N. Gaiman. I am so fed up with sexualizing the MC - it makes me so uneasy when a male author writes such stuff. If you want a taste of what I mean, I highly recommend the subreddit r/MenWritingWomen. In our case our MC could not eat a peach (!) because it made here feel like having sex with a woman. I am not making this up. This is how it´s written. I mean... I mean even if a female friend of yours dropped this in real life and you thought "oh, I should put this in my book." Don´t. Just don´t. And somewhere before that he also wrote some bs like "every eyes were on here like a young woman who just got breasts noticed how they were noticed the first time." dude, just shut the fuck up and stick to jujitsu and ai in your book. these are just two sentences in a long novel but they ruin everything for me every time. I came for a story (which was by the way good) so just leave you pervert fantasies out of it. Oh and to all those reviewers here that complained that they never knew in which timeline they were, if she can hear voices, if it was a dream, a sequence or what the heck is going on....welcome to sci-fi reading. that´s the best part of it.